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Originally Posted by growlithing
It's just moments like this that are so sweet I have a really hard time believing I interpreted the situation incorrectly. Why would she pull me in like that but then set up boundaries? Moments like that feel like they are leading me on, but I know it really isn't. We can still have affectionate moments/days despite the fact that I can't be her literal daughter. It's just so hard for me to accept that even though I can't have this relationship be the full maternal figure I envision in my mind, it is still okay. I want the entire experience or I discount what I perceive to be a partial experience because that moment we had today was by no means a partial experience and I need to stop trying to reanalyze it, looking for her rejecting me.
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This is suuuuuch a good reflection growli!! It's ok to want and wish for your T to be more than she can (who doesn't wish things like that about someone at some point or another?), but it seems you are starting to accept the fact that she can not, and will never be, more than a T.
It sounds like you can start learning to accept her for who she is, and appreciate her just as she is!
The kind and sweet things she does for you, and the fact that she cares about you? Are really nice things, and they can be given to you freely without wanting to take things further.
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