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Originally Posted by A Red Panda
This is suuuuuch a good reflection growli!! It's ok to want and wish for your T to be more than she can (who doesn't wish things like that about someone at some point or another?), but it seems you are starting to accept the fact that she can not, and will never be, more than a T.
It sounds like you can start learning to accept her for who she is, and appreciate her just as she is!
The kind and sweet things she does for you, and the fact that she cares about you? Are really nice things, and they can be given to you freely without wanting to take things further.
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I'm starting to get confused again. Maybe this is something more than just a T/client situation. I mean, technically, she is more than just my T. She is my case manager, T, and group leader. I'm around her all the time.
Today, she took me to CVS. My mom is insisting that I cover my scars or else basically. I have never worn any makeup at all, and she wanted to help me find some good coverup and essentially show me how to use it. She wanted me to consider letting her put mascara on me, but I just feel too uncomfortable. I don't want anyone to notice me.
She looked through other products to help me with my skin (it is super dry).
Me: "why are you doing this?"
T: "I'm doing what a normal mother should do"
She said that with an attitude of "your mom sucks" so I know she was I guess reparenting in a way. I just don't know. I don't think that going on walks or going to stores with your T is typical while it might be for a manager/life coach. It's hard to have rock strung boundaries when her actual role isn't totally clear. Maybe she is planning on being a bit of a mom to me as opposed to a therapist. I don't know. I told her not to lead me on. She said she wasn't.