Fun, interesting, lovely and similar things are not words my therapist likes to hear when asking about my mood. She doesn't respond well with "this sucks", "Isn't medication suppose to help?" either. but I have no idea how else to explain any descriptive words when she asks about the last two week. Any idea's of more descriptive words would be greatly appreciated.

But now I have to tell my pdoc what's been going on these passed 6 ish weeks and make my case for why I didn't show up sooner. I know I'm posting a lot about my self so please remind me what I'm missing and how to quickly describe it.

• Convinced if I didn't go to sleep right that second I'd kill myself even though I was petrified of it. took PRN
• went to crying sporadically
• between the sporadically crying I decided that I was exhaling hatred. That I was going to make M depressed and mad at me and turn a friends baby evil and she'd die during childbirth just by breathing near them. Took my PRN went to bed was better in the morning
• when I finally stopped sporadically crying I decided I was M's imaginary friend that lasted about a week
• some other temporary fun-ness but all left within the 1/2 hour
• Most of the time my anxiety was really high now at least I can actually breathe with out being alone with the light off (we'll see how leaving the house goes tomorrow)
• still sleeping 10-18 hours and want to SH but have no intentions to.
• I want off meds

Anything else anyone can think of that's been going on with me for the past little while? any idea's how to sum this up better? Other then I think I may be depressed. I'd really love a one word short sentience answer