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I moved 3000 miles to be with (what I thought ,the love of my life) things arent working out and I have been here for 6 yrs in this on again off again relationship...here's my problem...I'm planning on going back home 3000 miles and scared to death..my anxiety is way up because for one.I'm leaving the man who I love with all my heart and soul,2 I have never traveled that far before other than when I came here ...I came here with him on plane ( my first flight ) and leaving by uhaul with two of my closest friends from home..they are flying here to drive me back...I love him but I cant stay here and go through this anymore ...I have panick attacks just thinking about going the distance and starting all over again ..has anyone ever gone through something like this? I know as I get closer to home I might feel better. but for now , the waiting and wondering is freaking me out ...please tell me it will be ok leaving him is going to make me so sad but I know theres no sense in trying anymore ..I have done all I can do ...he still comes around will I even be able to say goodbye ? I just dont know..sorry if Im confusing you ...please help

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I did go through something like this. I moved to Utah from Wisconsin (1400 ish miles) and didn't know anyone. I made a home for myself there for a year and due to a mixed set of circumstances I couldn't support myself anymore and had to have my parents come get me and take me home with a UHaul. I felt like a complete failure and my panic disorder flared. But now I look back on it and see that things do happen for a reason and I'm really glad I left. It was stressful to go through (I made it stressful really, it didn't have to be) but now I see that things all work out....like the end up doing. YOU CAN DO IT!