oh, Hamster Girl, you have courage. Courage is onlly demonstrated when we are undeer fire. Some general -- Patton of someone of that stature -- told his scared boys, barely men, going into bloody battle, that courage meant being scared and fighting on anyway.

You definitely are fighting on, even though it may seem like barely so some days.

Pllease, please recognize these good qualities in yourself. You deserve not only hugs here, but your own.

PS -- When I am very scared and lonely, I cudlle a stuffed Lassie that I've had since I was a kid, and I am 56. A young man in my church is very proud that he carts a teddy bear that he's had since boyhood with him.