hi alex_k
just wanted to you know i love reading your thought processes. they are incredibly insightful and give me so much to think about and absorb. you really help me.
i think you re doing a great job of working through and managing the stuff that is coming up for you. i think option 2 sounds like a really good one to try for but rapunzel is right also. option 1 is viable as well because you dont have to be perfect. if you are as honest as you can be with your T about how much you want to share and how and when you want to share it i think he will be more accepting than you can imagine. sometimes saying at the beginning of a 'ramble' working up to something else that you do have something on your mind and you would like to just chat for a bit to see if you can feel more comfortable about bringing it up might help him understand. anyway, rambling lets him get to know you better and lets you get more comfortable with just hearing your own voice in that space.
hope i made some sort of sense.
thinking of you,
biiv