...I'm also not actively seeking mother figures. It's not like I'm literally thinking to myself "hmmm I am going to start viewing this woman as a mom". This just happens to me. My brain does this automatically and no one has offered any way to fix that beyond "you have to heal through yourself. You have to care for yourself". How? I literally don't know how to heal myself because if I did, I wouldn't be in therapy for six hours a day and then on a mental health at night. My T is attempting to teaching me how to care for myself by showing me care. I'm trying to heal through myself. Don't through me under the bus and say that I'm running away from reality just because I can't just snap my fingers and get over my issues.