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The "alone" part of your title does indeed make it difficult, but focus on the "fighting" part. Something is keeping you going. You have a strong drive to survive this. It may feel like you are close to the edge but seeking and following through with help is a huge resource. Sometimes it may seem like things are so bad that you can't survive without that professional help, but the fact that you are getting that help shows that you ARE doing what you need to do to survive.

Survival doesn't necessarily mean being strong enough at all times... it means doing whatever you need to do to stay alive, and a big part of that is recognizing weaknesses and getting help in those areas.

Strength doesn't always mean overcoming weakness, it means not succumbing to weakness and using whatever tools are available to help.

Think of it the same way the cliche goes about bravery... bravery isn't not being scared... where's the bravery in that? Bravery is being scared and fighting anyway.

If you've read around my posts you know I can relate to the "no help" thing as if we had performed a Vulcan Mind Meld. That still hurts me, and still tortures me with regard to my future... but for now the important thing is to focus on getting through this whether you have friends around to carry some of the load or not.

Someone close who could lend emotional support would certainly ease the burden, but you DO have help... you have the doctors and professionals to help with the important details of getting well again, you have us to offer understanding and support, and as you are learning, you have yourself to count on.


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