Ufff, so I am not the only one who is smiling when talking about the abuse? I caught myself few times on smiling when for sure it was not very appropriate (ech, I guess that my T has also noticed that). However, I am not sure if I smile in order to mask pain or feelings other than the embarrassment... I also noticed that when I am really stressed, I yawn what people actually take as a sign of the relaxation... Good that I have not yawned yet at the therapy - my T would think that I'm bored...

Thanks for sharing, I am not sure yet if I want to have my defenses broken, I guess it's scary then (without the defense) right?