I can not say exactly why.... but my heart absolutely breaks when I see or read about young people (like yourself) put in such horrible positions. And to hear of the suffering that you are going through..... and none of it being your fault. It is just so unfair. Makes me sad and angry and dejected all at the same time.

I feel so bad for what you have gone through. I wish I could take all your pain away. I wish I had some *wisdom* that I could share that would ease your pain and your current struggles. Sorry - I do not. Just let me say that as one human to another human - I love you. I am sorry for your pain. And if there is EVER anything that I can do to help you - PLEASE contact me.