Hi
I am so so sorry this happened to you.
I was abused from the age of 14 - 17 (now 32) and many horrific things happened to me during this time. All I can say is, things do get better with time but you will need all the help you can get. I say things have got better but memories sometimes get to me. If you're not already in therapy I would look into it asap. Also maybe try and find a support group.
I am again sorry you went through this ordeal
If you ever need to chat, PM me