My alcohol councillor called crisis on me. Ccrisi was really not helpful. My thougys are al over, my insides are empty. I have decided to leave befor i cause anymore damage. Just got to straighten things out so there's no mess. Got enough food in so they won't starve. Will do a final clean. I got all i need . My appreciation toall that could understand my garbled self. Fiunally i can be calm, finally it makes sense and there will be peace.