Just kind of a vent to people that will understand.

I had an end of year review with my manager today. I was really freaking out before hand, because it's a new manager, and I really had no clue what she was going to say. If it was a bad enough review, I was fully prepared to just walk out. Anyway, I texted my T prior to the review, asking if she could talk after it was done, as I was sure I'd need to. She texted back that she was free late this afternoon and would call me.

So, two hours after my review, I start to feel foolish for freaking out. It didn't go as badly as I thought it would. I feel guilty for bothering T and asking her to call me on her last day before her vacation for the holidays. I sent T a text telling her nevermind, I'm fine, and don't need to talk. T texted back and asked if I was sure. I couldn't answer that...I just replied that I'm feeling embarrassed about freaking out. T texted back and said she would still call me at the planned time unless I can tell her that I'm asking her not to from my wise mind. I can't tell her that...so I guess we're going to talk.

I kind of felt relief that she's not letting me hide and that she's still going to call me. At the same time, I really don't have much to talk about, except for the fact that I freaked out so badly this morning and then tried to completely retreat in embarrassment. I hate this!!!!!!