WOW! I kinda feel like I'm reading about myself!!! I came to the "school and study issues" forum b/c i have been put on academic probation. the only difference, is that i am/was a music performance major, (b/c i dont have the pre reqs to be music ed.) My main prob is that i reeeeeeaaally want to be music ed, and many ppl tell me, that i am "really good in music" and w/me, my parents "expect" me to excel in music everything b/c its my "aspie obsession"... and this semester has been hell for me as 1. im in a new college, new city, 2. living for the first time by myself,3. family is kinda far away, 4. i have a lot of allergies,health probs,LD's, 5. on a med that's only partially working for me, and on top of all this, i'm expected to practice over 14hrs a week, do all homework, go to classes, go to lessons, attend a special meeting for autistics once a week, meet with my mentor at least once a week, see a counselor once a week.... 6. somehow find a primary dr,counselor, nutritionist, and psychiatrist up here, even though i cant drive... I too have felt sooo disapointed at myself for failing almost all my classes this sem, and all b/c i missed a lot due to hospitalization, migraines, etc. plus, i just ddnt have energy to do anything half the time, and there is just sooo much stress on me i feel like if i could do it over, i would change soo much. I got an email saying that based on my juries, my playing level hasnt risen to the level it needs to be at, and that i need to find a new major... i feel too that i cant tell my parents, cuz my dad would just tell me that "i told you so" thing,and mom would be so disapointed.