For the past two weeks I have been stable. It's been amazing! Honestly, after about a year of being mixed and rapid, and tapering off effexor, these past two weeks I have felt normal. And like things were going to be okay. I wasn't HAPPY, but I could see how my life could keep going.

And then Monday I felt a little down.
Tuesday, worse.
Wednesday, worse.
And tonight I'm in a crumpled heap and can't stop crying.

The worst part is that I felt so hopeful that what I was doing was helping.
I could really use some words of encouragement right now.