I believe no harm was made because i have no memory of that happening , it's rough when these intrusive thoughts feel real , but deep down inside I use my though of " I wouldn't do that " thought to fight the "intrusive thoughts" and say to myself mentally that I am in control , I don't blank out mentally and create harm ,

It's rough you go to the restroom
And then hours later intrusive thoughts say you caused harm to the toothpaste

And I keep on telling Myself I did not do this .

I keep on telling myself I am in control of myself

And I would not do this act of harming the toothpaste

And to fight it off even better I tell myself i at this moment of I wanted to I would brush my teeth with that toothpaste , and I would eat or drink anything in the refrigerator,

And I tell myself there won't be anyone harmed

These intrusive thoughts / harm ocd feel very real and scary ,

And these intrusive thoughts created another intrusive thought that it is memory coming back , but I know I don't mentally black out and do things

But deep down inside my heart I would never harm food / drinks / toothpaste

It's just terrible having these awful thoughts

Please please everyone at " Psych Central " I don't have health insurance

Please let me know what I'm suffering with,

I want my normal brain back where there was no fears of purposely causing harm and thoughts like this....

It just suddenly manifested to this

Please help me please.....