Are there other reasons for avoiding life besides fear of rejection?
Maybe I am repressing it, but I don't feel any fear of rejection.
Or maybe I was rejected so many times that I am numb to it now?

Related? :
People tell me I am a great person and good looking.
I laugh inside when I hear this.
I don't see it.

I know I love, but I can't feel love. Or very seldom can I feel it. This drives my family nuts I would imagine. Love is a motivator. And it is the glue in relationship. So you can imagine what my life looks like devoid of love feelings.