I'm very new here and so far I've been afraid to stick my foot in and not be able to get back out. I have one sister that I talk to about my fears of my disorders, The only reason I can talk to her is that she has many of the same things happen in her life. Mostly I just keep it all inside.

I often keep myself in denial by keeping my life very busy. When I read other people having experiences like this I realize that they also relate to me.

These things happen in my life too, although I've had 3 straight marriages and am now in a same sex releationship. We've been together for 10 years and at times are very wonderful together. Other times, I see her as a friend, a helper, a person who comes and gos.

Problem, I'm a 48 year old woman who gets completly confused about who I am and who/what i want. Now I'm having these wonderful dreams about spending time with, and having very hot wonderful sex with a man.
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Am I straight, gay, or bi? Or is it that I just have to keep all of us happy?

Love and Light,
Annabelle <font color="#008800"> </font>