He is an asshole! I'm sorry that he has hurt you and he is unprofessional. What does your issue with trusting him have to do with what he is paid? Nothing!

I have been with my t for about the same time as you and at times I wonder to myself how much I trust her. I am borderline and have abandonment issues so it seems to come up every few months.

Do you think you can get past what he said to you? I know that I couldn't myself but maybe you can. I know that finding a new t is not easy but maybe it is time to move on.