Well I am not dwelling on it or anything. It may seem like it but i have a lot of time on my hands to post stuff during the day and a lot of time to think/overthink things...

Thing is though, yeah I've been getting by, not really pushing the issue.. for 2 yrs now. Girls have come and gone (not gf ever) and I just press on and get on with my life. So eventually something has to give. Please understand I'm not going to go out and try to "find" a girl or be ridiculous and try to "be in the optimal place" at the expense of my real life or anything. I post this stuff in case the opportunity arises, not thinking it's something I can actually make happen. The opportunity may or may not arise, but up to now I've just kind of not done anything about it, or at least not done things right... apparently

Having a gf is not the end all for me or the ultimate goal at all. I have been married, have kids and have been around the block. it's not as if my life will end if I can't find someone to be with but it sure would be a nice thing.