I'm generally having a hard time at the moment. l feel at my happiest when l manage to stop eating and over the last 2 days l have got myself to that place. So now I am wanting to avoid my T, because of course he wouldn't understand and would over react. l tell myself I know what I am doing and once I feel Ok about my weight, then l'll eat properly again. Yet I know I have been in this cycle so many times before. I put my head in the sand, but then it comes back. I think of telling my T but I know I don't want him to have input into my eating, it feels scarey, plus it makes me feel revolting about myself. But then what is the point of going to see him if I keep it hidden? I am so confused right now.