I got a letter from my therapist that she " disowned" me because I haven't been there in a while. yea I know I need to go. but I'm ok with it I think. she wasn't deep enough for me. I think im too messed up.

I'm bp2. should I have a general counselor or someone more specific to my needs? for the record, I have psychiatrist for meds, but she is not the talk to type. how much of a specialist do I need?