I am not exactly sure my.whole problem or how it got so bad and unmanageable.

All I know...is I am a single mom of 3. My oldest turned 3 a few weeks ago. I have been away from my abusive husband for 5 months...yet things seem worse with my sleeping than better.

Most nights...sleepiness doesn't ever hit. I wake at 630 or 7...when ever the kids wake up. Then I get then asleep by 9pm. But...no sleepiness for me. I usually lay in bed from midnight till 3 in the morning when I nod off for a hour and wake up for a hour then sleep for another hour. So usually I never sleep more than a hour at a time...and usually no more than 4 hours total in a night.

I hate being alone, sleeping with no one in my arms.
I have nightmares that wake me.
I also get panic attacks just as im about to size off...the panic attacks im sure are due to the abuse I suffered at the hands of my dad while I slept...but more so at the hands of my husband...who became accustomed to waking me up to a punch in the face...accusations of cheating and pushing me off the bed while I slept because I was too fat and my moving woke him (never mind the fact I have been pregnant for the past 3 years)

So...I got a few issues. Im usually physically tired...but rarely sleepy if that makes sense.

I know I can't go on like this forever....