i asume your bipolar on bipolar forum , well i can tell you i never would take meds i loved being manic when young, didnt no then the crashing depressions were part of it i just nuked that with booze. I did things people still talk about 30 years on, i had 3 kids with different women before 21. Fights i very near died from i always seem to loose , motorbike and car accidents ect ect, then i became ill with abuse of booze had pancritis , then ops for gut related drink probs plus gall stones ect. NNNNNNow i take meds. im a lot better but lost my good looks to weight gain through meds and life seems a lot duller . But i would be dead not writing this if i hadnt took meds.