Actually, I had been keeping myself on the different support groups. I was over medicating myself with Xanax because I just couldn't deal. I went to group and admitted about the over medication and got put on protocol. It wasn't just the colonoscopy by that time, but by Friday, I was in the emergency room because my bladder stopped working. I didn't want to go to group and the next Tuesday, the catheter was supposed to be removed. Wednesday morning I broke my toe and ended up so heavily medicated for pain there was no way to go. By Thursday I had to go back to a urologist because they think the pain medication had made my bladder not work again. Had planned on going back to group but didn't because I didn't want to go in with a catheter and told them I would not be in until after the 23rd, when it will hopefully be removed. But by that weekend, I was just in a bad place. So like it or not, that next Tuesday, I did go back to group. Went all 3 days. Because of the amount of Xanax, I was placed on protocol. And only allowed a week's prescription at a time.

So I am getting out. Not doing well, but trying to take some steps to try to keep myself from thinking too much. As far as the colonoscopy, she couldn't complete it because, she suspects,,scar tissue was preventing her from completing it. I have to do it again, this time under MAC, which, I guess is a stronger sedation. With my bladder problems I don't intend to reschedule it until at the beginning of next year.

The upper endoscopy showed Barrett's Esophagus and esophageal erosion as well as 2 holes in my stomach.

Sorry for babbling. Thanks for asking.