I, too, am in the same boat. I have rational days where I feel like I am strong and confident, then I can feel it coming on and I turn into a mess despite the fact that I know it has the opposite affect that I wish it did. I will fall apart, act totally needy, cry, etc. Then, when that dies down, I can tell my husband is a little more distant and freaked out. I feel like if my actions continue, my husband will never again see me as the strong, confident, independent woman I once was- more importantly, I will never be able to envision that person either. I don't want to lose him and I don't really think I will. But what if it doesn' t go away? What if he just has enough? What if it gets worse? Yes, the terrible "what ifs" are what do me in. This is the main thing I'm working on with my therapist. It has helped- baby steps though.

Good luck and I feel your pain.