It is very scary to admit to anyone, let alone a T, that you have an ED. Know that it is your ED talking about not wanting to tell your T. Also know that most EDs have an underlying issue. We don't choose to have an ED, just like someone doesn't choose to have diabetes. It sounds to me like you are not ready to deal with your ED, and that is ok. Everyone has to be ready at their own time. In answer to your question about seeing your T, are there other things that you are working on that he can help you with? Maybe after working on those things, you will be more willing to work on your ED. Whatever your decision is, we are here to listen and support you the best that we can.