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Originally Posted by gayleggg
I'm not really sure what dissociation is so I'm going to give a couple of examples and see what you think.
When I was 17 I was date raped. It's like I didn't really experience it because I watched it from the top of the seat in the car. I just sat and watched.
Other times when I really be come uncontrolably upset can leave the situtation where i don't hear the other person or what's going on around me. It's like I'm not there. I can choose to do this when I get to emtionally upset and feel I can't handle the situation. It includes rocking and rapid eye movement.
Does this ring any bells with anyone. I don't do if often enough for it to be a problem, but I was just wondering if this is dissociation.
Thanks for your imput.
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When I was at school there was a girl who used to go numb like that and leave the situation, it was her method of coping with trauma. She'd been raped too and whenever she was stressed she used to leave the situation.
Personally, when I dissociate it isn't like that. It's more like the way you described your experience of being raped; you were watching while it happens to yourself. For me, when I switch I don't black out or retreat into my mind, I'm still there but I'm just watching as the alter starts doing bad things, it's terrifying because I try to stop him but I just... Can't. Then again, lots of people seem to have different experiences with dissociating so I wouldn't know. If you think you dissociate then maybe you should see a professional who can examine what's going on properly
Also, I'm sorry to hear about what happened in your past...