So it looks like T and pdoc are slowly trying to get me on the AP full time. I worried my diagnosis is slowly changing to a more 'serious' dx. Ever pdoc and therapist that my family has assures me that seroquol will not cause me weight gain at that low dose. My husband's T, & pdoc and my T and pdoc has urged me to take the AP as often as I am comfortable with. I actually am seeing my pdoc in three weeks not four. I really don't see the emergency or crisis that they do, if they even do. I'm thinking it's them pushing more because I trust their opinion.

Today in T: My depression is lifting I guess because I can actually tell I'm depressed. My depersonalization was due to how high my anxiety got but I guess my anxiety is still really high because T was worried about how well I handled the waiting room. There was more talks between my husband and T about what issues were mental health related and what should be brought up to my neurologist. More conversations about how I view the world. Tons more notes were taken but this time I was much more able to take part in the conversation this time. She agree's that on top of everything else I have SAD. She's going to try to get it approved by the clinic and my insurance to see her more often. I'm worried their not telling me something. T already said that partial hospitalization and group isn't a good idea for me or my husband. We were talking about how well the waiting room went and how horribly group and PHP went for my husband. I'm really starting to be concerned. My husband was also in my appointment the whole time

My son is now going to therapy 1-2x a week. I have no idea why but that's really none of my business. If his therapist suggested it than it's probably needed. Up until today he was seeing his therapist every 2 weeks. I'm thinking that if he went to public school plwe would be having a conversation about their intensive out patient program.

I don't know if I'm just being paranoid but it seems like there's a lot of things going on behind the scene with our team that we have not been made aware of yet. There has been no change in my husbands treatarement except a recent medication change.

Should I be worried? I feel like I should wait until they talk with us what is going on and they will but I'm really curious.