Thankyou so much for your post. It helped me to separate from that panic in my head. Yes there are other things we are looking at in sessions and l guess I can just focus on those with T. l have spent my life struggling with things which l thought were normal things to struggle with. Looking back l am starting to think that maybe things haven't been as normal as l had thought. l always think if l can be a certain weight, a certain shape then eveything else in life will be fine, l will be happy ever after. l am not even sure if this is an ED, it makes complete sense to me to lose weight this way. l am not someone who can just cut down and lose llb a week, when l decide to lose, l need to see bigger losses or else it feels like l am failing, but part of me challenges this. l have battled with things today, but did make myself eat as l had such a bad headache and couldn't quench my thirst. And tomorrow l am seeing my Personal Trainer and l know he will ask what l had for breakfast, so will have to eat then.