Hey
Yea I know exactly what you mean. I know we cannot use this forum for advocation of this and that would not be tolerated. But I want you to know, I'm struggling with this too. It often fills us with a great sense of comfort to revert to some old coping mechanism.

I'm 31 and recently started cutting.....again.....it does feel good and that's the problem. This is a poor coping tool that we incorporated and it may have worked for us then, but we are far more intelligent now and know what this will lead to.

I guess what I'm saying is that you're not alone in this sentiment, I feel it too. I (shamefully) enjoy it also- ppl don't understand. you and I are telling ourselves its ok to start again because the cuts aren't as bad as before or as deep etc, but it's self harm and we must fight like hell to find another outlet.

arghhhhhhhh, I hate that I feel you on this. I feel you....

Try to be safe, as I try and know you are in company.