Hey all I went to my psych doc and was changed to a new drug for Bi-Polar disorder I was kinda aware it was a possiblity I guess I was hoping it was not the case.... Anyhow I am pretty emotional today it is the first time in along time I have cryed and to be honest I am hurting alot I have lost a friend and she has demanded that her lover not speak to me if he wants them to work, He is more of a brother to me than my own flesh and blood and she is only doing this to hurt me .... I have to respect his decision if this is what he chooses to do..... But it hurts me alot more than I think she realizes or maybe she really does not care for me any longer.... She made some really bad choices in her life and tryed to get me in the middle of them and I had to bring them to the surface for my sake and take responsiblity for my actions in the matter she has hurt and lied to alot of people and I was stuffed in the middle made out to be the bad guy in this now her husband has finally stepped back and realized what she is doing and that she is cheating on him and she is cheating on her lover with her husband this is the friend of whom I speak..... I have to go I cannot type any longer troubled1