I finally got it together to finish one job application that I've been working on all week. Now, my job apps are complicated, requiring portfolios, letters of reference, etc..

Feeling as if I had accomplished something positive, I decided to keep the positive energy going. I filled out at online form for a 2nd job -- as the employer required for this position. But it didn't process, my printer went crazy printing out every box of type on a separate page, the laptop started to humm, overheating I guess -- and suddenly, tears were sprouting from eyes.

I can so much empathize with the people saying they have given up. It's so hard to keep on trying when ever little thing seems like a minor setback in depression. Just this one thing overwhelmed me.

My whole family has a very pragmatic, pull yourself up by the bootstraps
philosophy. I think I used to be like that before I lost my health, job, beloved, dogs, and home. last year. I looked up some mental health resources in the yellow pages; I definitely need more structure and human contact in my life.