Lately (months) I've been feeling kind of dissatisfied with my life. Currently I have no college degree (I started -- have not yet finished), work a minimum wage job, have a boyfriend of two years but not sure where we are going in terms of the future.

I'm 24 but I feel as if I should have accomplished more things at this age. If things had gone as planned, I would have gotten my degree two years ago. I would have gotten a better, higher paying job. And have the means to have a family.

Lately (the point of this post) I've been wanting to have a kid (I got pregnant with my boyfriend's child a year and three months ago but we got an abortion. I really regret it and miss the child tremendously) It makes me notice kids (Kids that you see on in public) more and makes me ache for them.

But anyway, I've been looking back at my life thus far. I'm so confused. Not sure how my life is going to turn out. I wish I could get ahold of a crystal ball so that I can look into the future -- twenty, ten, even five years from now. Just to get a glimpse of what is to come...

But there is some light up ahead. I am starting classes next semester and will hopefully be earning my bachelor's degree in a year and a half (due to my prior college credits).

Anyway, the point is.. is this a midlife crisis? Or am I just being extraordinarily reflective?