Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you and this situation. I lived through something very similar but in my case it was my dad. I was never good enough and could never live up to my father's expectations. He apologized a couple of days before he died for not being the parent I needed, but he put the blame on me, I was too demanding.

Parents can really **** up their kids. I try so hard to be a better parent then I had.