My name is Brandi...I am 27 years old and think I have an issue with alcohol and substance abuse.

This is strange fire to type...because I have never admitted this to myself...let alone other people. My reasoning was my drug or alcohol use was always controlled, a choice and not really out of control.

But...I am an addict...and that won't ever change. I take pills that aren't mine...not out of need...but to get high, get knocked out or whatever. Honestly...I don't turn down any pills.

I was sure that I didn't have an addiction problem because I never buy anything, don't use something every day and am able to function fine.

I don't think my alcohol or pill use is a problem really right now...it is so rare. But my constant thinking about it...planning how to get ****ed up and wanting to escape when stuff hits the fan leads me to think...yes I am an addict.

At this moment...I know for sure I would not turn down most pills, marijuana, cocaine, meth, ecstasy or alcohol. Even though if I got caught doing any of those things me and my children could be on the street. But I'm not stupid and know I won't do too much I can't function...and I know I won't get caught.

Wow...honest feedback please. Like I said...it is strange to be writing this because I'm not sure it's a problem.

Or is any drug use a problem? Im so confused....

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