Hi

You need to find a way to cope with this. It needs to be behind you, not define you.

I know you hurt, I know it is scary, I know you feel some sense of that it was your fault.

It is not your fault. It is over. You are beautiful and strong and god has given you gifts that are unique only to you. You are wonderful.

We all have our stories as we go through life and this us part of yours. Maybe it would help you to write your story. Write it all.

Then put it in a box and hide it.

When you feel strong again, go help a girl just like you. You will understand her.

Oh yeah, I have a cure all for when panic comes crashing into your chest. Take your iPod and crank a loud rocking song you can sing to and play it as loud as you can. Play it until that pesky guy panic leaves you. It works. (You may need to play same song 25x), so what. Dance around the house too

You are beautiful