I understand how you feel. I have struggled through working which was always difficult for me. Up until I quit my last job ( it was either quit or be fired) Then I couldn't find another job anywhere. During this time I fell pregnant and now I have a 9 month old son. I love being a mum and I'm doing an ok job of it. I was medicated during pregnancy and did not breast feed due to meds. (Abilify and tofranil)
Best wishes with your journey.