》》》》》Every time I see his face in my mind - I cry. 》》》》

I know I still do the same thing...
I have hundreds and hundreds of pictures and videos of my soon to be ex husband which are still on my computers and mobile phone which I have been unable to completely erase smh...
It's just a daily reminder of the hurt, disappointment, abandonment and loss I feel which is pathetic on my part... every time I get ready to try and transfer them to a disk or something (storage wise) he does his pop in which takes me back in and gives me false hope that he has come to his senses and realized that we really had a workable situation in which we could be together and have a great marriage with better communication...
But he then flips on me and shuts down and avoids me and carries on as if I do not exist...
Until the next few weeks and or months go by and he does same thing...
Too painful...
2 1/2 years of his madness every time I start healing process just enough to be able to go to sleep or not think about the extreme hurt of what will never work between us, POOF HE'S
INITIATING CONTACT AGAIN...
I HAVE GOT TO STOP...
STOP THE MADDNESS...

》》》》There was a time, recently when I wanted to sign a song for him, I wrote the lyrics to him, you might know the song:
Say something, I'm giving up on you.
I'll be the one, if you want me to.
Anywhere, I would've followed you.
Say something, I'm giving up on you.

And I am feeling so small.
It was over my head
I know nothing at all.

And I will stumble and fall.
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.
Anywhere, I would've followed you.
Say something, I'm giving up on you.

And I will swallow my pride.
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying
Goodbye》》》》

I have done all that when I feel strong...
Angry at the way I am treat me without an once of respect for me and my family...
But then I reminisce old memories and seem to soften up a little and that's when he seems to catch me off guard...

Do you really the intention behind the words of the song??? Or is it again reaction from him???


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