I understand your fears. I moved away from my home state also, not quite as far but far enough. I go back and forth with should I stay or should I go. Fear is one strong emotion. Your brave and I give you alot of credit for going back and starting over. Thank god you have friends willing to help you out, that is a good thing. I think you will be ok because you have support and will not be alone with this. I wish you good luck and a safe drive.