Sorry for what you've been through and u're so lucky to still be here to write about it. Going to counseling will help but ultimately you need to forget the past and start a new life. You will find someone else that love you, share your concerns and comfort you.

Imagine u're kids growing up in an abusive environment. Is that what you want? Is ur husband more important than your children? And u already know the answer by escaping from hell! Let him be in hell for what he did! Don't feel sorry! Was he sorry when he tortured you? Is that what u do to your loved ones? That's criminal and cowardly acts! He's lucky u don't beat the heck out of him when he's high and go to the police for self defense.

You missed him bc u're so used to the normal day to day there and now you're FREE! New changes make u feel insecure and a little uncomfortable. Be strong! There are plenty of social services that can help u both emotionally, and financially so u can provide a better future for your children! Your children will thank you for your protection, shelter, comfort and an opportunity to live a better life! You're a true HERO!

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