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Originally Posted by mdarlington
I am the first one in my family to go to college. I have completed 3 quarters of school, but I had to take last quarter off due to my physical and mental well being. At the end of each quarter I get so overwhelmed that I end up being involuntary hospitalized each time. Last quarter I almost killed myself. I was fired from work as a result of my mental illness. I have been unemployed and out of school for 3 months. I feel worthless. I am starting winter quarter in a couple of weeks, but I am worried that I will never amount to anything if I cannot handle the stress. I am behind my peers, because of mental illness. I feel like nobody understands what it is like to have these thoughts and feelings everyday. People think that I can just, "get over it," and it will magically disappear, but if that was true I wouldn't be this way. Does anyone else feel like a failure, because of not being able to go to school or work? Please reply. I feel so alone.
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Ur a lot younger than I but the feeling is the same, I feel like a failure, I was soo strong and so alive, I'm failing in soo many ways, Job, financially, relationship, spiritually.
So dont feel alone, WE all have our crosses to bare,
I was on my way to success only to be struck down with illness, mostly structural issues, spine and joints. But now it's affecting my ability to function, people are dismissive when they feel fine and they dont feel the way you do, not too understanding huh?
So you dont handle stress well, Neither do I...I panic and I panic just at the thought of having a panic attack. I tried to explain that to a doctor once and he was so dismissive and demeaning to me I never went back to him.
You are already on the right path by discussing it with people who really dont judge. KUDOS for you.You will do fine as long as you keep an open mind and dont bury your head in the sand. I thought I was alone in my mess until I found this site, you will do fine, just take it slowand know there are people out there with similar things that might shed some light on your situation in a good way, never stop trying.