Hi Goodfortune,

I felt compelled to send another post. I am so confused about everything. I can not make a decision and when I do I change my mind every 2 minutes thereafter. I am so jealous/envious of other people that when I am at the town pool I scan each and every one of them and say to myself they are happy how come they can do it right, they are smiling and laughing I just want to cry. While doing this I am then taking my attention away from my children. I am disgusted with feeling like I have no self worth. I tell myself over and over that I do; the negative thoughts of you can not do anything right overcome that. Due to my negativity I have few friends. I have had friends who have actually told me they can't deal with me and my demands on a friendship because I am so needy. I am uncomfortable around others and it gives the impression that I am a ***** when that is the last thing I want to portray or that I am a needy person who doesn't now how to "operate" in life. I am always asking everybody else for their opinion.

Immaturity, which inflames many of my issues and as something you pointed out about your husband fuels me to be like a kid .
How does your BP affect you? Do you attend a support group? There is a support group DBSA - Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance that is across the country dbsalliance.com.
How did you get on with the kids after the divorce? Did you work or have financial stability?

Interestingly enough you said that your husband had bpd undiagnosed. Did you diagnosis him with this? Something you said, that he blames all his problems in life on you. I am doing this myself to my husband and it is causing him to resent me.

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I could go on and on