thanks blackpup, good to "see" you
I know I am not truly alone, but at this moment, I only have myself. Honestly, I haven't felt this out of control in a very long time. I'm scared I can't make it by myself. I have been closing out the world for some time now. I have become a skeptic when it comes to believing in ppl. Right now I feel like the dirty little secret. I can't go down this road, I can't have it wreck what I have fought so hard to achieve.