Well...things are a little better, but also a little worse. I got sexually frustrated this afternoon, so since it was too painful to masteurbate, I decided to stick ice cubes up my vagina (not large square ones from an ice cube tray, narrow pieces from an automatic ice maker...the pefect size just to slide in).

Sure it was cold, but it distracted me from the burning sensation, I was having. As well, the freestanding burning/having a needle stabbed in me feeling is gone. Though if I accidently touch the clit or around the clit I still get a piercing pain.

While the ice did alleviate some of the problems, I also think it made new problems because ever since I did that, I have been having cramps. Why am I so stupid?

Guess, I am going to have to face my fears and try to getin with someone tomorrow. Don't know if that will be possible as I am not an "established" patient anywhere, but hopefully someone can squeeze me in since this is not normal.

I guess I could always go to the hospital, but my copay for that is $250 plus 20% of the total cost of whatever procedures they perform and I do not have that type of money. A specialist visit for "moderate" problems is only $45. A preventive visit is free, but I don't think mine would be considered that since I am going in because I am having pain.

This sucks.