Oh! It's not a bother, John!

(It's been said I over-explain. Probably guilty. And it probably comes off differently than I intend it. If it is of interest to you, here is my attempt to explain what is at the heart of my earlier response. You are also free, of course, to disregard...)
I just know how not receiving a prompt reply can start up negative self-talk loops for some (eg. they don't care, see, I am a bother, I don't matter enough, they don't like me, what did I do wrong….etc.) It's not all that uncommon, especially when one is already feeling badly. I am probably over aware of and sensitive to the phenomenon, because it is the very way my BF interprets/reacts to response lag time. The worse of a place he's in, the shorter that lag time before his negative self-talk begins -- because to him it feels so very much longer. (I will spare you just how fast and far that spiral goes, because it can be positively frightening, but can tell you that it's made me acutely aware of others' realities in this regard -- hence laying out my cards to you out of respect and caring.) He's not the only one of course, but simply my up close and personal exposure to it -- many many many people experience this. To greater and lesser degrees. How hard does it kick in and how fast? It's a continuum. Does it kick in right away? If not, what kind of time frame before it kicks in (wide variation there of course)? Does it not kick in at all? Everyone is different. I don't know where your felt response falls in all of that. But you do! Therefore, I lay my cards on the table simply so that you may factor in the part I don't know in order to make a determination of how ok you'd be with me often not being able to respond promptly. That's all. )

I hope your day picks up. Is there a light or funny show or movie you could watch? Are there lights up in your neighborhood that might make for a pleasant stroll? These might sound a bit fluffy, but they're legit.