For me just being around people is a huge challenge because of how I feel when I'm around them. I always, always never feel good enough! I feel like people know that I am not like them. Like I am not worthy of their time or conversation. I never feel smart enough or interesting enough. I just never feel like I can relate to others. As a result of this tremendous anxiety I feel when around people I avoid it as much as I can. I am most comfortable when sitting alone in my dark bedroom. Eventually I get bored and depressed but would much rather deal with that then all the anxiety I feel when around people.
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