((((purplemoon))))))

I am right where you are. I have no energy. I feel as though this horrible disease has swallowed me up whole, eaten me up & spit me out, over & over & over & over. I have fought soooooo hard over the last 17 yrs but the last three-four yrs have been especially difficult. I feel like it has won, no matter how hard I try & fight. I can function for literally only two - four mos, & then I crash. Very hard & very badly. I crash for ~ six mos & it takes me another four (at least) to get myself back up to a "functioning level" again........all to repeat the cycle over again. :*(

I, too, feel like, "What's the pt?" and think that it will never ever get better. Right now, I honestly feel as though I am dying.......b/c my body is just so weak.....mentally, emotionally & physically. I can barely walk up a flight of stairs w/o stopping, which is really upsetting for me, b/c I've been a major athlete all my life. I just feel so defeated inside; I feel like I have no more energy to fight & just want to disappear into nothingness. I feel like the last 17 yrs of my life were a complete waste.....

At least you have your kids to live for - let them bring you love & the strength to fight. I "only" have some good friends. No family that cares.