[QUOTE=The_little_didgee;3477581]Opening up comes with trust which takes time to develop. I am in therapy and have been for about 19 months and I am only starting to trust her. My first few appointments were really difficult, because I was scared of getting misdiagnosed again and judged. Feeling vulnerable is yucky but I try to talk because she has been very patient with me.

You don't need to take medication or agree to see a psychiatrist (unless you have a severe illness that threatens your safety and that of others). You can tell the therapist that. Most will respect your wishes. Why do you think you will be made to see a doctor?[/

Many years ago when I tried the therapy thing I was made to get a doctor and given medication. I just feel like that would happen again because the only two
places I could go to for help are known for this type of thing. I wish I was strong enough to try to get help again. Maybe things could be different this time. I guess I won't know until I try.