I got it from both my parents, my father being the worst, but only forgiveness has set me free. Eventually, I saw just how sick those two were, and that helped to heal me because I realized it was they, not I who were at fault. I'm not totally healed because when I read your story, I started to get angry all over again, but I know the way to my mental health, and that's a lot better than the way it was for so long. Know that you're not alone in this struggle, if that helps.